Fox Spirit 66: Another Side of the Story
The Tully’s Coffee Shop chain had always seemed a bit bizarre to Sara, a knock-off of Starbucks set down in Beijing as if from a different planet, filled with bustling office-workers seeking a quick snack and a Western-style energy infusion. She saw Ruth Cheng at a small table at the rear of the shop, eyes scanning the shop as she stirred a cup of coffee. Sara ordered the quickest and simplest coffee and joined her.
“So kind of you to come to meet me. Please excuse my rudeness in asking on such short notice. I am so sorry to be a trouble.” Mrs. Cheng was looking anywhere but at Sara.
“Bu keqi” Sara cut off the ritual courtesies. “You know I am always happy to talk with you, though we have not met often. You must have some special reason to come into the city. It is good of you to make time to see me also.”
Mrs. Cheng pressed her lips together and risked a quick glance at Sara. “No, no other reason. I have come to see you only.”
“I am honored, Mrs. Cheng. Is there some reason?”
“Yes.” Mrs. Cheng hesitated, then started again. “It’s very awkward, but I must ask you. I have heard there is a child.”
Sara smiled. “You have heard correctly. There is a child, called Riqi. Storm is very good with him.”
Mrs. Cheng dropped her spoon and gripped the table with both hands. Her voice was a hiss of anger. “Wo mei xiang dao. I cannot believe this. This is terrible. You have betrayed me, betrayed my son! How could you?” She leaned forward over the table.
“I thought we understood each other. You would teach Storm how to be with a woman – this is good; this he needs. But of course I believed you would not have a child, that an older woman would know how to prevent one. Now this! Storm can only have one child, you know; it is the law. That must be with his wife, when he has one. Now you have this child – you have betrayed my trust, you have betrayed our family. What can we do?”
Sara stared at Ms. Cheng. She must have heard something garbled about Richie. But how could this woman speak to her of betrayal? How dare she of all people claim a mother’s concern?
“Ah. I think I understand.” Sara’s voice was cold despite the hot anger rising inside her. “Whatever you heard about a child, you understood it wrongly. He is not Storm’s child, not my child. It’s not a problem for you.”
Mrs. Cheng moved back only a millimeter. Her voice was sharp with disbelief. “But who is this child? Storm has been away from the house so many evenings. Then I heard about a child with you. Why would he be interested in a child that is not his or yours?”
“Not my son, but my grandson. His mother died, and my son asked me to take care of their child. Storm is fond of children, you must know this. It is no surprise that he enjoys Riqi.”
“Aiyee!” Relief swept over Mrs. Cheng’s face, followed by a wave of embarrassment. “Please forgive me, Mrs. Miller. You know it was concern for my son only that made me speak to you as I did. He is our only son, our future. Please excuse a mother’s anxiety.”
Sara could not hold back her resentment and contempt. “A mother’s anxiety? I am surprised to hear you say this. You showed no such anxiety when you abandoned Storm Cheng to be raised by peasants in Two Ox Village!” She heard the anger in her voice, knew it was un-Chinese, saw the flash in the eyes of her opponent, braced herself for the riposte, and still was unprepared when Ruth Cheng sprang to her feet, almost knocking over the chair. Her words came so quickly that Sara could barely follow her words, so forcefully that she could barely catch her breath.
“So, Storm has told you his story – from his point of view! Maybe you also have understood wrongly! Did he say he had ever asked for the truth? Did he say he had ever talked with his father or me? If he said so, he lied! He knows nothing. He was sheltered. He was protected. And you judge me from what a child has seen and known? What do you know of what was risked for him? What do you, Miss American Foreigner, know of fear? You are as sheltered as he, although you claim to be a grandmother. Until you have risked your life to save your son, you may not judge me!”
Sara’s surprise fought with her temper. Her siding with Storm had been so automatic, the thought of another side of the story had not occurred to her. Still, how could Storm have been wrong? How had his life been ‘saved’ by his parents’ deserting him? She replied stiffly, “Mrs. Cheng, it’s true that I have heard only Storm’s account. I am ignorant. Please sit down again.”
Ruth Cheng was breathing hard, her eyes bright with anger and unshed tears. Slowly she sat down, lifted her coffee cup, and sipped. Finally Ruth Cheng spoke, carefully choosing her words as if she were offering a lecture, in contrast to the emotional storm which Sara had just seen.
“I don’t know how much you know of the last thirty years in China, the years of Storm’s life. Since you’ve become his great friend, maybe you can help him understand his fate. This would be good for all of us, I think. So I will try to tell you. It will be hard – these are things that we don’t speak of. You will understand once you’ve heard…. “
She took another sip of the coffee, then carefully set the cup down and folded her hands in her lap. Her eyes went back and forth from the cup to Sara’s face.
“First, you must know something of my class background.”
Sara hid her surprise. What did Ruth Cheng’s class background have to do with her abandoning Storm? She took a breath and chided herself. Don’t start debating. Hear her story first.
Mrs. Cheng leaned forward again; her face was very near Sara’s now. Her anger was no longer visible, but her voice was muted, so that Sara had to lean even closer to hear.
“Our parents – Mr. Cheng’s and mine – were all labeled ‘bad elements’ during the Ten Years Turmoil – you call it the Cultural Revolution, maybe. My husband’s father had been with Deng Xiao Ping on the Long March. He thought he was safe, but when Deng was denounced, Cheng’s father also was struggled against. My husband’s mother taught music on the violin and piano; these were Western instruments, and she taught Western music. They were denounced as rightists, and their own son had to participate in the ‘struggle sessions’ or be denounced himself. Still, Cheng’s parents were luckier than some. They were not beaten badly or tortured, only humiliated. They had some powerful friends in the Party who must have helped to protect them.
“My own father would probably have been denounced too for Old Thinking, but he had already died. My mother was a doctor, working at a health clinic in Beijing. She was allowed to practice medicine, but only with the supervision of a party member. Medicines were few, hygiene was difficult. If the patient lived, it was because of Mao’s right thinking and the correctness of the Communist supervisor. If the patient did not recover, it was because of my mother’s rightist loyalties, Western training and Old Thinking. Many times she was beaten when a patient died.
“It is hard to speak of what happened in those years. Cheng had finished high school and was ready to start university; I had nearly finished high school. We did not know each other then. We had both been highly ranked in our class, but we were children of rightists. We had to prove ourselves to be dedicated Communists in order to be part of the Red Guard. We did things that I can’t talk about. Our education was what we learned on the streets and from the Red Guard mobs. Sometimes we fought other students who claimed to be more devoted followers of Mao. Really we were nothing but street gangs.
“Then came a change. Mao mandated the Down to the Countryside Movement. All the youth in the large cities – Beijing, Shanghai, Nanjing, Guangdong, Jinan, Chengdu –were sent to the remote provinces. Mao said that the students should ‘learn from the peasants’. Maybe the real reason was to break up the Red Guards, stop the disruption. History changes with the writer.”
“So you were sent to…?”
“To Anhui. To a small village called Two Ox Village.”