Fox Spirit 54 – National Dreams
国庆
半百殊如梦
昂头发未衰
千春生万象
旭日正东来
-陈立强
National Day
Half a hundred years pass like a dream;
Stand tall, head high, our strength has not decreased.
A thousand springs gave birth
To all things on this earth.
The sunrise comes directly from the East.
– Chen Li Qiang (1999)
September 1999
Sara
The conference room was empty. Sara checked her watch – still a few minutes until the Tuesday meeting would start, but normally everyone would have been there by now, not wanting to risk Jerry Wang’s sharp look and sharper words for late-comers. Just as she thought of going for a cup of tea from the lobby, Scarlet Li hurried into the room with a stack of fresh copies in her hands.
“Ah, Sara, you can help me put a form in each place. Boss Wang wants each of us to let him know of our plans and whereabouts for the Golden Week.”
“Golden Week?”
“You didn’t hear the news broadcast last night? Or see the morning paper? We’re getting a new holiday, in honor of our special National Day this year! It’s our country’s fiftieth anniversary, you know. We all get the week after National Day off of work to travel home and celebrate with our families. I think everyone came in early this morning to make travel arrangements through our company account. I hope Boss Wang will be in a good mood, if he comes in while everyone is still on the phone.”
Even as she spoke, the other managers began to appear. They were all smiling and bubbling with conversation. Sara overheard snatches of travel schedules, township names, ticket prices. The new holiday had created more excitement and camaraderie than she had seen since she had arrived. The buzz only began to subside when Jerry Wang arrived last of all and took his seat.
“Ah, I see you are all excited by the news of Golden Week. I’ve asked Manager Li to get information from all of you about how we might get in touch with you over that week if we have a need. But before that, I have another announcement. I and my wife invite you all to a party the night before Golden Week officially begins. I’ve heard there will be fireworks for the National Day; we can watch from the rooftop of our apartment. We can all enjoy this before we leave for visiting our families.”
The buzz of excitement rose again, but Sara said nothing. She had no family in China to visit. She had made no friends outside of her work. Golden Week without her co-workers would be an empty week for her. She lifted her chin and found a smile. There must be some tourist sites she had not yet visited.
By the last week of September streets and subway stations along Chang’An Boulevard were closed so that Communist Youth groups and military platoons could practice their synchronization for the National Day parade. The parks and stadiums were full of activity as workers from each urban district of Beijing built the floats that would be the civilian part of the parade. On the first of October the Rainbow Software group, with spouses and friends, assembled at Boss Wang’s rooftop apartment. Since Jade had invited Bright Liu, the gathering of friends from the Jiu Jin Shan Wine Bar was complete.
Even in the open air, the smells of ginger, spicy oil, onion and anise set Sara’s mouth watering. Two girls in white shirts and black pants carried trays of dumplings, satay sticks, pork buns and sautéed vegetables from guest to guest, offering fresh chopsticks with each delicacy.
Jerry Wang had set up his large-screen television on the roof, where it displayed a slowly moving file of tanks and other military hardware, interspersed with meticulously outfitted soldiers goose-stepping the entire length of the parade route, each helmet and each rifle placed at the exact same angle. Sara’s companions were ebullient in their enthusiasm for the precision performance, especially Trueheart.
“So, Sara,” Trueheart called out. “The twentieth century was “the American Century” – are you ready for a change? Here comes the Asian Century, and Asia means China!”
Sara stiffened at the challenge in his voice. Why did Trueheart always seem to pounce on her?
“Yibu, yibu! One step at a time!” she replied tartly. She nodded down at Trueheart’s feet. “Does that mean you will give up your jeans and your Nike trainers?”
Trueheart laughed and lifted his beer mug, acknowledging her hit. He moved closer to Sara. “In America do you have as big a parade as this? So many soldiers, so many tanks, so many planes?”
“You think soldiers and tanks are for celebrations?” She felt like a grown-up censuring an unruly child. “In America the military isn’t so much a part of government celebrations.”
From the way he looked at her she knew he had not caught the sourness in her tone. “But this is National Day. Without the army we would have no nation, would we?
“In America we save our military and our planes for war, not display.” Sara thought for a moment about the Air Force Thunderbirds air shows she had seen and mentally crossed her fingers.
“We ordinary people need to know that the government can protect us if we’re attacked.” Trueheart went on almost as if she had not spoken. “For years China was at the mercy of European nations and Japan, because we had no modern army. Now when other countries see our military power, they’ll think twice before attacking us.”
A squadron of Chinese Air Force jets zoomed by almost directly overhead, ending the conversation with a roar. Trueheart grinned and turned back to the television screen, clearly feeling he had won his point.
Suddenly Sara felt herself an outsider at the party. She had a small glimpse of how it would feel to be always looking up to America as an unassailable giant, and how exhilarating it would feel to think the giant could be toppled. How had Goliath felt when the stone hit him? Did he think ‘this can’t be happening to me!’?
Scarlet Li was a few steps away. She moved closer to Sara and patted her arm sympathetically. “These men,” she said softly. “They talk politics as if it’s only a game, spending money on these noisy toys and competing to be biggest, strongest, first, best. Women must take care of the details: keep house, cook food, have children, cope with birth and death –while they have their toys. You mustn’t mind Zhang. He hasn’t grown up yet.”
Scarlet’s understanding brought unexpected tears to Sara’s eyes. At least Scarlet didn’t treat her as an ousider. She blinked the tears back and turned to find Storm. He was in the group around the television set, deep in discussion with Bright Liu as they pointed out the various armaments now parading past on the screen, now swooping overhead. He was so earnest, so excited by the future and so young! Then Storm turned back from Bright toward her, tossing the shock of black hair from his eyes as he looked for her. Her sudden need to be part of him made her tremble. She moved to his side and reached out for his arm.
“Have you quarreled with Zhang?” Storm asked Sara.
“No, not exactly,” Sara replied. She wanted to lean against him, wrap her arm around his waist. She knew this would be inappropriate, that it would embarrass him greatly in front of his friends. She shook her head impatiently. “It is only that I’m not Chinese. I’m like a rock in the way of a flood.”
Storm laughed softly. “We don’t have this kind of celebration every holiday, or even every year at National Day. This is special because of the fiftieth anniversary and maybe partly because our government is still angry from Kosovo.”
“I heard that reparations have been made, that the families have accepted compensation?”
“That may be so, but still we don’t want America to think that such ‘accidents’ will have no consequence. And we need our people also to be reassured too. So it is like a play, a puppet play with strings going up into the darkness where we can’t see. Let’s relax and enjoy the show. Come, you haven’t filled your plate. As soon as it gets dark we’ll be able to see fireworks from all four parks in the city from Wang’s roof.”
Sara couldn’t help a small moan of frustration as he turned away. If only he’d been able to put his arm around her, let her be close. Damn Chinese masks! Maybe when it was dark…
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Chen Li Qiang’s poetry by permission of the poet.